Where Feet May Fail

3 Jul

In exactly ten days, I will be leaving for LIV Village. I will be driving down to Durban under the watchful eye of my Daddy Dearest- who will fly back to chilly Joburg after he has safely deposited me in my new, little red house.

It has been a thoroughly bizarre two months, as the reality of resigning from my job and moving to LIV has permeated my mind. It is a strange happening, when the place you have been trying to leave for the entirety of your conscious life suddenly becomes comfortable and appealing. I experienced this. Almost as soon as my LIV arrangements were finalised, Johannesburg suddenly became extremely appealing. My itchy feet were apparently playing stuck in the mud with my comfortable life.

I think this must be some device of the devil; that when someone commits to move in the direction of God’s calling, they are suddenly lured into the depths of their environment. I remember about a month ago, while I was swimming in these depths, a work colleague pointed out that I could, “just stay”. Hearing this, I agreed with her logic. I could. The core of my being, however, knew that there was and is no option but to go to LIV. Anything else would be disobedience.

God wooed me big time this past weekend. All the doubts and fears and second thoughts that were fogging up my brain were dispersed, instantaneously. He reminded me of who He is, what His plans are like and the fact that He is better than anything anyone or any city could offer. As I stood in the morning service at my home-church, the children from the local children’s home played behind me and I was reminded of the children at LIV. I felt something that is becoming increasingly common in my heart.

In an instant God’s Spirit grabbed my heart and I felt so overwhelmed at the fact that I have the privilege of being a part of the lives of children at LIV. It’s natural to think that the children should be the one’s that are grateful to have people offering to ‘help’ them. But I have felt the complete opposite. I cannot express how utterly and soul-consuminlgy grateful I am to God that He is letting me be a part of their lives. I am the blessed one because I get to be involved in God’s redemption of these little people who He breathed life into. I am merely a person. I am flawed and selfish and have no special, spiritual certification that makes me in any way an acceptable choice for this job. God doesn’t care though. He’s not asking me to be perfect. He’s asking me to go. And He will do the work. I am His hands and His feet. My most sincere prayer right now, is that somehow God’s love for these children will flow freely through me. That I would be a funnel. His love poured into me and out, through me, to them.

All I can do is thank my God and simply say, there is truly no-one like Him.

I am still afraid of certain things. I know this adventure will be the hardest one yet. In that, I would love your prayers. I want to thank those who have stood with me, prayed with me and for me up till now. I also thank those of you who have either sponsored me financially or have committed to do so. You and God are truly flooring me with the blessings.

I will try update this little bloggy wog on the 1st of every month. I do not promise that I will keep to that every month but I will try. I will also try put more pictures and fewer words in future posts:)

Here’s a little lyrical treat to awaken the adventurer in your heart;

“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders

Let me walk upon the waters

Wherever you would call me

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander

And my faith will be made stronger

In the presence of my Saviour”      Oceans (Where Feet May Fail), Hillsong United.

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2 Responses to “Where Feet May Fail”

  1. Nicola July 4, 2013 at 8:29 pm #

    Beautiful! Such an adventure – scary, life changing, heart molding – but all so right because you are following God. It is such a privileged to be serving children and being part of their lives. Praying for you! Love Nicola

  2. Nathan July 8, 2013 at 10:42 pm #

    He judged the cause of the poor and needy; then it was well. Was not this knowing Me? Says the Lord (Jer 22:16). Your adventure embodies the very purpose for which we were created: to know Christ intimately. There is no greater experience and privilege…

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